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My feelings are hurt.
People won't leave me the hell alone.
Ugh.
-- Jori
- Mood:
cranky - Music:Violin Covers
So I got my permit today. I'm happy about that. =)
But I've just been feeling really sad recently. I know it's probably just because I'm PMSing. But I feel like my sisters dislike me more and more everyday, along with my brother. I mean, what am I doing wrong? I love my siblings, and we have our tiffs, but I just always feel like they hate me and want me to leave. My parents seem to be in slightly better moods lately. They're letting me do more and they're not making me do as much work around the house. Scratch that-- they still make me do a lot of work. :/ I guess all in all, I just feel sort of lonely. I'm hopefully going to Baily's house this weekend. She and Rhianna will be there, and we're going on a little road trip to the mountains or something. ... That may be fun. Hm. Rhianna has been very moody and upset lately and hopefully it'll help her the most since she's starting college and being forced into adulthood so abruptly. This trip will be our 'one last hurrah' before school starts and we all have to get jobs and keep our grades up. Ugh... at least it's my very last year.
I went to Shelby's last night and we had a really great time. We talked about a lot of things that were bothering us or have been bothering us and we had a good conversation. But then the fun ended as soon as I came home. I had to steam clean, and then endure my baby sister arguing with me, my other sister being all nice and then bitching at me, then my brother being a smart-ass as usual. It makes me feel really sad and lonely, especially since I consider my sister my best friend. ): I feel like a need a good cry. I just want to lay in my bed, cry and then take a long shower.
I'm sorry my first post here in a while has to be emo, but I wanted to get it all out on here and not on dA. I don't want people telling me it's going to be okay and giving me virtual-hugs. I get that everytime I'm sad and although the thought is nice, it doesn't help.
BTW-- I passed my summer school class. No more math. :3
-- Jori
- Mood:
disappointed
Whoaaaaa.
It's been a while, ne?
To update (if anyone is still reading this), I've had a boring summer so far. I failed math (big surprise, fucking math teacher) and I have to go to summer school in two weeks to get FIVE. MORE. MATH. CREDITS so that I can graduate high school. I don't really mind-- I need to get out of the house anyway. Not to mention, Rhian's house is right down the street from the school, so I'm sure I'll be going over there a lot. xD
My birthday is on Saturday, and I'm having a party with a group of my friends. I've invited Baily, Rhianna, Shelby, Becca, Lizz, Kylie, Izzy, Erin and Drea. Shelby and Rhianna already R.S.V.P'd, and Izzy said she couldn't make it. Dx Erin can't come either, because she's going to Oregon the morning before. So HOPEFULLY everyone else can go. Baily was saying that she'd be at her aunt's house, but the two of us have been going to each other's birthday parties since I was eight years old-- SO SHE BETTER COME. D<
I've been obsessing A LOT over Death Note lately. And I'm playing stalker-- I found Akane and Hangdok's livejournals and they are wonderful. ;O; I want to roleplay with Akaneeee, but I'm scared to actually message her and ask her!
AKANEEEE~ I WANT TO BE THE MELLO TO YOUR NEARRRR!
I haven't been drawing lately, but I want to start up again. I've been roleplaying every dayyyy for the entire summer. It's insane. I've just been writing, writing, writing. xP It's starting to hurt my head.
Oho~ In happy news, I've FINALLY gotten my white-slip from driving school and I'll be taking my permit test next week! -cheers-
Well, I better go for now.
I'll... TRY... to keep up with this damn journal. xP
Bye~
~Jori
- Mood:
blank
Taken from Snaily~
STEP ONE
Make a post to your LJ. The post should contain your list of 10 holiday wishes. The wishes can be anything at all, from simple and fandom-related ("I'd love a ______ icon that's just for me") to medium ("I wish for _____ on DVD") to really big ("all I want for christmas is a new car/computer/house/TV."). The important thing is, make sure these wishes are things you really, truly want.
If you wish for real life things (not fics or icons), make sure you include some sort of contact info in your post, whether it's your address or just your email address where Santa (or one of his elves) could get in touch with you.
Also, make sure you post some version of these guidelines in your LJ or link to this post so that the holiday joy will spread.
STEP TWO
Surf around your friends list (or friends' friends, or just random journals) to see who has posted their list. and now here's the important part:
If you see a wish you can grant, and it's in your heart to do so, make someone's wish come true. Sometimes someone's trash is another's treasure, and if you have a leather jacket you don't want or a gift certificate you won't use -- do it.
You need not spend money on these wishes unless you want to. The point isn't to put people out, it's to provide everyone a chance to be someone else's holiday elf -- to spread the joy. Gifts can be made anonymously or not -- it's your call.
There are no rules with this project, no guarantees, and no strings attached. Give, and you might receive. And you'll have the joy of knowing you made someone's holiday special.
STEP THREE
Jori’s List~
1. All of you have a wonderful new year and an even awesomer BIRTHDAY. D<
2. A yummy AlxAl fic or picture just for me.
3. The first Haruhi Suzimiya DVD. ;_;
4. YAOI DOUSHINJIIS
5. A Heidrich Caramelldansen animation.
6. A giftcard to Barnes & Noble.
7. A sweet boyfriend who understands and loves me. xD
8. A deviantArt subscription.
9. A Livejournal-Plus Account.
10. Fullmetal Alchemist Soundtracks 2,3, Best Collection, & CoS.
Want my address to give me stuff? 8D PM me!
(I'll only give my address to those I know and/or trust, so BACK OFF PREDATORS. >D)
- Mood: chipper
I’m pretty excited about Christmas. Last year, I had no spirit for it, and it was sort of a bust, you know? But this year, I’ve spent at least $80 on presents for people, and I feel very accomplished. Last year I got $20 and went to the dollar tree, getting shitty presents for everyone. I think this year, I went all out—like, seriously. I’m REALLY proud of myself and the things that I bought for my family and friends. I’m totally excited for Christmas morning and the Christmas party with my pals (which reminds me, I need to get another gift or two for Rhi, since I did for Bei) and seeing everyone open their gifts. (:
I’m also thrilled about my own gifts. I want some stuff too! xD I’m hoping for the rest of the Twilight series and a couple of anime DVD’s.
Speaking of anime, the club is going pretty well at school. I’m the vice president, and we have a lot of fun in there. We’re finishing up the Ouran boxset, gonna watch the last episode (Haruhi in Wonderland) on Friday. AGH, Friday, the promised day. That’s the last day of school before we get a big fat wonderful TWO WEEKS OFF. Spleeee~
I also have a new penpal, whomever they are. xD I’ve yet to learn their name, but hi there, if you’re reading! x3
I need to work on my junior research project. I’m doing the Salem Witch Trials. 8D
BTW, I made all of these new icons that I'm using (I didn't draw the pics, I just made the icons). Like them? =3
-Jori
- Mood:
rejuvenated
I decided today that I DON'T NEED PATRICK!
His girlfriend apparently broke up with him today. I heard that it had to do with how immature Patrick is. That made me realize that thats why I disliked him in the first place! I say good riddance. I'm proud of his ex-girlfriend and I would like to talk to her, but I know that'd be impolite to ask about the break-up.
I'm in such a good mood. If he comes back to me, I'll just laugh. >D
- Location:Home
- Mood:
HAHA! - Music:Merry Freakin' Christmas- Freakin' A
.... Yeah.
I regret breaking up with Patrick. But I fully realized why he broke up with me. Its because I'm a bad girlfriend. I barely paid attention to him, I didn't answer/return half his calls, whenever we went out, he spent more money than he had on me, and I usually picked my friends over him. I guess I deserved him breaking up with me. I've given up by this point, because he has a new girlfriend. She's very sweet and I'm sure they get along better than Patrick and I did.
I just miss him so much. He ignores me completely now. :/
In other news, Christmas is coming. I'm happy for that. But I've been sick for a week, which fails. I hope I get some awesome presents. I'm finally done Christmas shopping-- two weeks before Xmas too. :3 ARGH, my comp sucks.
Happy holidays~
- Location:Home
- Mood: crushed
He starts freaking out a little, "I still love you, I just see you as a friend! You're a great-"
"To be honest, I feel the exact same way."
He just stared at me and we hugged each other tighter than I've hugged anyone in a long time. xD We revealed that for the last few months we've been feeling more comfortable as best friends than a boyfriend and girlfriend. So I'm not sad at all! I think its wonderful that we're friends now. I think he's going gay, anyway. x3
-happydance-
-Jori
- Location:Home
- Mood: cheerful
- Music:Sally's Song- Amy Lee
To get shit out, I mean.
Cuz I can't TALK to anyone. I'm so stressed. Unfortunately, I'm starting slowly to revert back to middle-school Jori, when I wanted to commit suicide all the time. Yeah, I've been feeling suicidal. Don't get freaked, I'm just kinda losing it. I'm sixteen. My parents expect me to find a good-paying job and get out of their house in two years, my boyfriend wants to get in my pants, my grades are slipping, my friends are WAY too emotional for their own good, despite they're older than me with WAY easier lives.
I sound like I'm bitching about nothing, but there's more to it than that.
I'm just drawing and trying to be happy even though life is failing right now. The only sanctuaries I have are drawing, writing, hanging out with my little sis and watching some anime.
Here's some iScribble doodles I don't feel like putting on dA~
(I don't know how to post these on seperate pages... sorry about that.)
Heidrich.... he's half cut-off because I did it on the side of the page... xP
I've been drawing Al a lot for some reason...
See ya'll later.
-Jori
- Mood:
confused
Yes, I'm sure just about everyone posts shit about their boyfriends.
Mine is possessive, clingy, emotional and depressed 24/7. He can't stop complaining to me and he has some of the worst hygiene I've ever smelled. He covers it up with icky cologne. D: And I'm so sick of him grabbing me and trying to make out with me in front of my friends! Dammit! I wish he'd get his act together. He's almost eighteen, which means I'll be jailbait on February 4th. He expects me to go on vacations with him, have sex with him, marry him and have his kids! D: YES, HE'S SAID ALL OF THAT TO ME. He carries his condoms with him at school! What am I going to do? Jump his bones in the hallway?! THATS NOT HOW IT WORKS WITH ME, SWEETHEART. I'm sixteen years old! I'm not ready for a serious relationship-- I want to have fun, and hang out with my friends. I want to finish school and go to college. Why do you keep trying to pressure me?!
I love him, I really do, but sometimes I just want to scream at him. He makes stupid decisions, gets into fights and says disgusting things. I HATE HATE HATE IT.
Ugh. Sorry for the angsty journal. But I needed to get it out.
Anyways, school hasn't been going too well. I'm exhausted, my parents are making me get a job and my driver's permit, my boyfriend is... yadda yadda yadda.
But amazingly enough, my grades are the best they've been since freshmen year. Hum.
I need a cell phone.
-Jori
- Location:Home
- Mood: cranky
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- Location:Home
- Mood:Tired
- Music:If I Told You- The Wedding Singer
I'm already in a ton of them, but I'm having serious writer's block. That goes for my stories too. Ack...my poor friends want to find out what happens between ZombHei and Ed. D: But I don't even know yet. This sucks. I fail, is all. I fail baaaad.
I'm listening to music and junk. I'm freakin' tired. My parents are out boating right now with their friends. Pluh~
I don't really know what else to do today. I WANT RHIANNA (one of mah bestest friends) TO COME BACK FROM CAMP. I think she's supposed to be back today...Lesse, she left on Sunday, I believe. And she's supposed to be gone for five days...its Saturday now...yeah, I think she'll be back at some point today. If she does come back, she needs to call me. I need friends with me. ;_;
I'm so bored!
I finally got my scanner working, thank goodness. I put together one of my paper amvs...
-sigh-
Ooh, I friended Caitlin Glass.
HI Ms. GLASS! -wavewave- =D
-Jori
- Location:Home
- Mood:Super! & Bored...
- Music:Hey Juliet- LMNT
crappy
